Well, its been 20+ years since I started with this disability claim. Today, I received the final determination. Are you kiddintg me? After all this time, the VA contacted me saying that they messed up and was re-opening my case. So the VA got my hopes up that after 20+ years of this, they would finally do the right thing. The VA had me go down to their Hospital here in Boise and be evaluated on 2 different occasions. I spent some 6 hours of my life at the VA hospital for this evaluation. I even had to take time off from work for it, that I could not afford.
Now, the very instrument of my Avoidant Personality Disorder has risen back up to torment me yet again. They have dinied me again!!!!!
What do I do fron here? I really dont know. Im tempted to just drop it, again. But I dropped it before and the VA is the one that brought it back up.
Some good has come out of this. This blog as been a God send. Its helped me identify areas where I need help and its helped me identify triggers of the disorder. I think its helped my wife as well. She reads my blog as well and hopefully can understand a bit more about the disorder and how it effects me.
Maybe it will even help others as well. I plan on continuing to write in this blog. Perhaps for the rest of my life. I dont know. But I have to belive that God is in control in all this.
This is my log of my day to day issues with living to Avoidant Personality Disorder. My hope is that in writing this, it will help myself and perhaps others that are also srtuggling with this disorder or another like it.
http://www.AvoidantPersonality.com
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