Life is like a box of chacolates....

I love the movie Forest Gump. Thats where the title is from. Life does seem to be like a box of Chocolates. You just never know what you are going to get or get handed to you.

I was handed an Avoidant Personality. No idea why really. Though I tend to think now that maybe I was given this disability so I can relate to other Avoidants and maybe even help them.

But I dont like the theology of saying that God purposely made me an Avoidant. That seems like the same thing as the folks that say that God made them an Homosexual.

I think the better theology is that God does not make Homosexuals and he does not make Avoidants.

God can see the future as though it were to present. So to God your future is already written though to us it is not.

Its a bit confusing I know. My becoming an Avoidant was due to living in a corrupt world.

It was probably past down from my Mom, thought she was never diagnosed.

Im pretty sure that she is an Avoidant as well. She just does not know it. In her day, the common thought was to just deal with things.

So God knew that I was going to be an Avoidant and is using it as good.

Its just like Paul. Whatever thorn Paul had was not of God's doing. But God was able to use this thorn in Paul to keep him humble so that Paul would not get proud and think he could do things on his own.

Being an Avoidant is really really hard! Even harder on my poor wife and sometimes even on my daughter. I pray that she does not get it.

But Im thankful that I am an Avoidant. Let me tell you why.

I see so many good people that are good Christians do really good things for God and for his people.

But after a while of seeing all these really good things, the tendency is to start thinking less and less that God did it and more and more that they did it. They become puffed up!

This is very dangerous and leads to a fall. Often when this fall happens, they take lots of people with them.

Since I am an Avoidant, I fear people. Sometimes, I dont like people at all. I fear speaking to large crowds and have a terrible time making friends.

When my Avoidantism (A new word I just invented) is in full blown enforcement, all I want to do is run and hide under a rock somewhere.

But all this means that on my own, I cant do a thing. If I try to do things on my own, its a disaster.

So I must be totally dependent on God. Only God can enable me to go meet people, especially people in authority.

Only God can enable me to speak in front on large crowds. Its only through God that I can do much anything at all.

I know that what I do, I do because of God that lives in me. How anyone that is an Avoidant can survive without God is a complete mystery to me.

So all this to say that Im glad I am an Avoidant. Seems odd to say, but if I can only help one person that is an Avoidant, then my life has been worth it.

We all have no idea what we will be given in life to deal with.

If you are an Avoidant, or have been handed another lousy hand, you have a choice to make. Yes its a choice that is completely up to you!

You can either get angry about, shake your fist at God and ask"why me". Or you can accept it, make the best of it and try to help others that are having a hard time dealing with it.

I choose to do the later. In the words of that somewhat irritating, but right on, saying, "when life hands you lemons, make lemonade!"

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This is my log of my issues with living to Avoidant Personality Disorder. My hope is that in writing this, it will help myself and perhaps others that are also struggling with this disorder and others like it. I have set up a survey on AvPD. Click here to take it. I am trying to get more information on this disorder so that we can find commonalities. Perhaps if we can learn more about this, we can figure out how to combat it and get better lives for us all.